A Feature / by Leah Pantea

“Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. 

Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.  

Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul. That's why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there'd be no Resistance.”
-The War of Art, Steven Pressfield
 

Recently I have been living to bounce back from being flattened by resistance. Is that something I've already written about? Likely. And likely you too have experienced the shocking weight of fear and pushing forward. It is quite frankly the worst and most paralyzing thing.  

But today, in a couple hours I am releasing to the social media a featured video about myself and my work.  This experience has been entirely terrifying and exhilarating.  It is so vulnerable to provide a way for people to see me, and REALLY see me for my work and as an artist.  

As we sat down to figure out the direction for this video, all I really wanted above all else, was that the film be true. The struggle of an artist is real.  It is a huge blessing to choose to follow my purpose, however that choice is difficult. I never leave the office.  I live in the humbling presence of the muse and I want to value that choice always. 

So this feature is for that.  World! I am here! I am working and will not stop working ever.  Resistance may win some days, but it will not win my life.  My momentum is building gradually and I will not ignore it.